'ber' - months ending in 'ber' meaning, christmas is near...sooooooo,,, is there any chance that my christmas would be merrier than last year?? or should I say 'better luck next christmas' ....
2009 - full of stories, full of mysteries, full of hopes and dreams.. another chapter in my life that will not fade like a wind...first it was humid, second cozy and third nothing..and then whats next raining?...January -- the start of 2009 was not that good, eventhough there's a wedding bells ringing afar from me..at 3:00pm a tall man walking down the aisle while Im driving so far to north just not to feel the burst of hatred that killing me inside...no one knows, except my closest friends who supported me all the way, its very hard to see and to feel that you cannot be together nor there any chance to be together..it was a very sad start of my year..hopefully I can move on and start a new beggining...April --- a big punch! a big break! and it hurts... while were planning to forever, its gone to never... ang still it hurts...how can I be 'me' again...after all..
